When The Water Is Too Deep

Most mornings I go down to the pool. I don’t really swim – don’t like getting my ears in the water – but I walk back and forth across the middle of the pool. Some days the water is clear, and I walk without stopping. Some days I stop to rescue various insects that have found themselves out of their depth. Occasionally it seems as though the entire insect population of our area has decided to take a dip…
Most of these rescues are for small creatures – beetles or waspy type things. Sometimes I come across a bee. And, very rarely, it’s bigger – a very large stick insect, or a dragonfly. Unfortunately, they’re often already dead, so I place them beside the pool. There are mornings, though, when I can actually save a little being, and that cheers me up for the day. I love saving bees and yesterday I scooped up a butterfly, which I thought was dead, but started fluttering cautiously once the sun dried off its wings.

Here’s a dragonfly from the other day – sadly I was too late to save it, but it’s still beautiful.

Many years ago my Babe and I were in a takeaway waiting for our chips for tea. We lived in Southampton then, and it was that fuggy type of atmosphere you get when the weather’s cold but you’re sitting in a small shop where there’s food cooking… the air was humid and there was moisture running down the windows. Just beside the door there was an insect trying frantically to get out – beating against the glass, seeing the fading light outside and wanting to be out there. We tried our best to guide it towards the door, but it kept getting away from us and back to the window.

I am so much bigger than the insects I try to help, and to them my guiding hand must seem like just another obstacle they need to avoid. It’s frustrating for me – I don’t want to see them drown – but I can understand the fear of something you can’t see or comprehend but that looks like it’s in your way when you’re just trying to survive. I manage to rescue most things (although a fair number are already dead) but a few I just have to leave. All their fearful dodging takes them too far out for me to reach.

Tomorrow is Good Friday. It might feel as though I’m trying to shoehorn a lesson in here, but both these situations remind me of the Easter story – of the times in my life when I’ve been floundering in deep waters but not quite seeing the divine hand reaching out to lift me. Thankfully, God is patient
Tomorrow, we will go to church and sing and eat hot cross buns. We will, once again, take the time to remember the love that God has for us.
And after the Easter season is over, we’ll go back to our everyday lives, where we will still frequently catch glimpses of that other kingdom…

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As The World Darkens

I wasn’t planning to write today…
I’ve been catching up on some online things, which included checking out some folklore songs, and this song popped up on the YouTube side bar.

It’s getting colder here, and there’s rain this week. That’s a good thing, but it’s… still cold. It’ll get colder now, possibly fairly quickly, and I’ll bring out the snuggly blankets and socks. Right now I’m still in short sleeves and trying to decide if I’ll get too hot if I put socks on! πŸ™‚
Some landscapes are breathtaking, and make me think of heaven – I don’t know what that looks like, but I wouldn’t be surprised if some of these earthly places are echoes. I didn’t, primarily, enjoy this clip for the lyrics, although they’re good. It’s the mountains, and the majesty (I had it on full screen, and there’s a bit at 4:18 where I just said, “Wow!”). There doesn’t seem to be an English word for that indefinable longing for a place that you’ve never been to – that sad sweet feeling of nostalgia, or possibly anticipation. Other languages have words – fernweh in German, hiraeth in Welsh – that approximate the yearning. In Ecclesiastes it says that “He has set eternity in our hearts“.
Different people will probably have different sparks that set off that light of eternity. For me, one spark is majestic mountains combined with cold, rainy weather πŸ™‚

“Lord, You’re with me either way it goes.”

…and that’s the truth!

Published in: on March 17, 2021 at 3:42 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Colour, Intensifying

I love bright colours. I wear them, and often surround myself with them.
Last week I finally got around to redecorating my armchair – I’ve had a brown woolly blanket on it for a while, but treated myself to a purple cotton throw a few days back. I bought it, brought it home, gave it a wash… and then put it to one side and forgot about it.

Here it is in full colour, with bright(ish) selfie πŸ™‚

That unicorn cat type thing in the corner is lovely and squishy. It also came with a name, which I can’t quite remember…

A few days after this, my lovely friend came over with a bright watercolour hummingbird cushion for me ❀ so now it’s even more purply/pinky in my corner of the lounge room!

This weekend I’ve been attending the Colour Conference online. I haven’t been in quite a few years, for various reasons, but this year it cost less (no venue hire needed?) and I could log in from home.
Loved it! πŸ˜€
I’d forgotten how inspiring it is – worship, teaching (my hand aches, after scribbling notes all weekend at the speed of light!), and being reminded, again, of who I really am.
I have access to replays and bonus material until the end of May, so may see if anyone else wants to watch with me πŸ™‚
I’ve already signed up for next year!

Here’s a couple of songs to enjoy ❀

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Remembering Where The River Runs

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Steps, Finally Taken

This year I’ve signed up for an online prophetic creative academy, which consists of various online classes and Facebook group communication, as well as a Zoom call and teaching each month. This month our homework was to practise each of four contemplative disciplines – Sabbath keeping, speaking in tongues, Ignatian meditation and Lectio Divina.
I’ve tried Ignatian meditation, and I can see where it could be helpful… I just have difficulty really “getting” it. I could possibly try listening to someone reading the passage I’m using, rather than reading and trying to remember while I meditate on it – I’ll look into that!
This morning I had a go at Lectio Divina. First impressions are that I can see myself getting more out of it, although I find reading out loud to myself a bit strange! This morning the verse that stood out to me was from Psalm 6, the first part of verse 2 –
Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint
Not the verse I thought I’d focus on!
“Faint”, meaning “lacking strength”, but also perhaps lacking in colour and boldness, or being too quiet, not heard…
“Mercy” – unexpected, unmerited, pouring out…

I am also part of a group doing a study at our church. This week involves starting a new daily habit, which we choose according to our situation. It took me until today to figure out what mine would be. I’m a perfectionist. I’m also a procrastinator. The fact that it took me most of the week to come up with a habit would seem to indicate that! πŸ™‚
So – my habit will be to push past the procrastination block on something each day, even if it’s small.

To that end, I’m trying out a few different things… one of those is to have a pile of stuff that I can use to do some of the things I’ve been putting off. The idea is to have no excuse, because the book/pen/paper etc is right there, rather than somewhere else that would require a special trip to obtain.

I’ll see how that works out…

As part of my “things I’ve been meaning to do but haven’t got around to so why not have a look” today I got a book down from the bookcase that’s been lurking away for years. It’s a daily inspiration type book, and I’m not sure how I’ve gone quite this long without reading it.
What I normally do with this type of book is to flip to my birthday to read what it says, and get a sense of what the book’s like. Most of the entries take up the whole page in some way, so I was expecting my birthday entry to be the same.
It just said “Permission to complete (write yourself a permission slip)” with a couple of little notes in the corner (“learn your tools of completion” and “develop habits of completion”), and a recommendation for a book called… “Procrastination

I think someone’s trying to tell me something…

Published in: on February 26, 2021 at 10:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

Love!

It’s Valentine’s Day, and a Sunday as well, so we could spend time at church singing of God’s love…
I was given a beautiful bouquet of roses by the lovely lady who makes bouquets to hand out Sunday mornings. Mine was a belated birthday gift πŸ™‚
Here it is, settled in at home…

A close up, just because…

I am fortunate to have a loving marriage and family, so Valentine’s Day is a favourite day for me. We haven’t gone overboard with the celebrating, but we did pick up some nice cake to share.

GF rosewater and pistachio – yum! Tasty and romantic! πŸ™‚

Sometimes it may not look like it, but there’s so much love to be had in this world…
Some families are difficult, some situations (health, finances) are wearying. Days like today can make it seem like everyone else is enjoying life while you’re stuck outside in the cold. It’s OK to separate yourself from people that hurt and belittle you, and it’s OK to ask for help when the world is overwhelming. Find the ones who love you because you’re you! Our door is always open if you need to get away for a bit.
❀

As for me – I’ve just been enjoying Songs of Praise, and this is one of the songs they played.
Here is the Love that brings all love into my life… available to anyone who asks!

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Facing Forward

Happy New Year!
May it bring unexpected blessings, whatever the circumstances…

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All Is Calm

…and peace has come!

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Like Winter Snow…

…and a more traditional song for Christmas Eve.

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Song For Advent

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