I wasn’t going to post this, but I’m still feeling unsettled…. perhaps to write it out will be helpful….
Today, I had a bad headache, and I had a sleep early afternoon, after lunch. I was woken, a short time later, by a horrible dream, in which something terrible had happened to my littlest bean….
You know that state, between sleeping and waking, when you’re sort of not quite there? All I knew was that I had to pray, urgently and specifically…. so I did, the panic passed, I went back to sleep.
Was woken a little later by littlest boy crying.
Every so often, he thinks it’s hilarious to put things on his head. Usually they’re things like buckets…. today he chose the plastic bag one of his games came in. It was long and thin, and fairly tough. Somehow, he’d got it on, but it had slipped down, pressing against his nose and mouth so that he couldn’t breathe, but slipped down far enough that he couldn’t get it off again. He was panicking when he got to Daddy, who couldn’t get it off, either. He eventually tore it off, using brute force – the bag is in pieces, and I don’t think any of us want to look at it again….
I slept through it all.
Sweet bean was panicked and angry (through fear). He came upstairs, but pushed me away when I tried to cuddle him. We eventually calmed him down, hugged and talked… no lasting damage, and I think he’s talked his fears out…
But what if I’d rolled over and not thought to pray? It’s probably a moot point – the urgency was too great to ignore.
One of my greatest fears is that I won’t be there someday when my precious boys need me. I know (intellectually) that I never will be able to be there every minute of every day, and I pray for their protection every day…. sometimes I forget to “not worry”.
I’m so glad that I have a Father who is looking out for them, and who alerts me when needed…
“He will not let your foot slip –
He who watches over you will not slumber;
indeed, He who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.”
Psalm 121:3,4
I am so glad that “I (can) lie down and sleep in peace, for You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.” – Psalm 4:8
….and I am so glad that there is a precious little boy, sleeping peacefully in the next room, who will wake again safely tomorrow for another fun-filled, energetic day!
wow, these type of things go straight to a parents heart. Praise God all is well!
Your blog page is looking great, may have to get you to give me a hand with mine sometime soon. 🙂