When The Water Is Too Deep

Most mornings I go down to the pool. I don’t really swim – don’t like getting my ears in the water – but I walk back and forth across the middle of the pool. Some days the water is clear, and I walk without stopping. Some days I stop to rescue various insects that have found themselves out of their depth. Occasionally it seems as though the entire insect population of our area has decided to take a dip…
Most of these rescues are for small creatures – beetles or waspy type things. Sometimes I come across a bee. And, very rarely, it’s bigger – a very large stick insect, or a dragonfly. Unfortunately, they’re often already dead, so I place them beside the pool. There are mornings, though, when I can actually save a little being, and that cheers me up for the day. I love saving bees and yesterday I scooped up a butterfly, which I thought was dead, but started fluttering cautiously once the sun dried off its wings.

Here’s a dragonfly from the other day – sadly I was too late to save it, but it’s still beautiful.

Many years ago my Babe and I were in a takeaway waiting for our chips for tea. We lived in Southampton then, and it was that fuggy type of atmosphere you get when the weather’s cold but you’re sitting in a small shop where there’s food cooking… the air was humid and there was moisture running down the windows. Just beside the door there was an insect trying frantically to get out – beating against the glass, seeing the fading light outside and wanting to be out there. We tried our best to guide it towards the door, but it kept getting away from us and back to the window.

I am so much bigger than the insects I try to help, and to them my guiding hand must seem like just another obstacle they need to avoid. It’s frustrating for me – I don’t want to see them drown – but I can understand the fear of something you can’t see or comprehend but that looks like it’s in your way when you’re just trying to survive. I manage to rescue most things (although a fair number are already dead) but a few I just have to leave. All their fearful dodging takes them too far out for me to reach.

Tomorrow is Good Friday. It might feel as though I’m trying to shoehorn a lesson in here, but both these situations remind me of the Easter story – of the times in my life when I’ve been floundering in deep waters but not quite seeing the divine hand reaching out to lift me. Thankfully, God is patient
Tomorrow, we will go to church and sing and eat hot cross buns. We will, once again, take the time to remember the love that God has for us.
And after the Easter season is over, we’ll go back to our everyday lives, where we will still frequently catch glimpses of that other kingdom…

Published in: on April 1, 2021 at 6:36 pm  Leave a Comment  
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A Walk Through Another World

We’re just over 24 hours into another sudden lockdown. It’s been quite nice to have everyone home during the week, although they’ve been to a series of online lectures in bedrooms instead of in person lectures, so I probably haven’t seen the family much more than in a normal day…
One thing I’ve been trying to do lately is to take some time to go on an artist’s date. Often that’s shopping for random beautiful things at the charity shops around the town, or having a coffee while writing or sketching. Or sometimes just thinking, and enjoying good coffee. This week that won’t be possible, but next week is not too far away! Last time I went to have a look at the gallery. I haven’t been there in a long while, but I always enjoy it. There’s often beauty, or works to make you think. Taking the time to really look at what’s displayed is an opportunity to look through someone else’s eyes, and catch a glimpse of their world. It’s good to be able to expand what can increasingly feel like a restricted life.
This time around I had a look at a couple of solo exhibitions, and also a selection of contemporary works from the gallery’s collection – it’s on until the 18th April, so there’s still time to go and see for yourself!
Here’s some of what I saw 🙂

Magic Muffin Mountain, by Hany Armanious
Yes, it is as big as it looks!

Ceramics, by Dai Li
There were five figures altogether – these are called “Eating Noodle” and “Slyboots”
This one is “Bad Bird 2”

I’ve had days that feel like that…

I can’t remember the name of the splat on the wall, or the artist, but the marble in front is “Messiah Complex”, by Alex Seton
Look at the anatomical detail in the interior and base of the skull!

This is so cute.
And creepy.

“The Listener”, by Patricia Piccinini

This last one was from a separate, solo, exhibition upstairs – I nearly didn’t bother to go up there, but I’m glad I did. These were a series of depictions of fine, unravelling fabrics, painted with gouache on paper.

The Rose’s Rarest Essence Lives In The Thorns – Rubaba Haider
The whole series is quite beautiful.

Here’s a close up.

All this wonder and a cup of coffee?

It was a day well spent…

Published in: on March 30, 2021 at 9:37 pm  Leave a Comment  
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As The World Darkens

I wasn’t planning to write today…
I’ve been catching up on some online things, which included checking out some folklore songs, and this song popped up on the YouTube side bar.

It’s getting colder here, and there’s rain this week. That’s a good thing, but it’s… still cold. It’ll get colder now, possibly fairly quickly, and I’ll bring out the snuggly blankets and socks. Right now I’m still in short sleeves and trying to decide if I’ll get too hot if I put socks on! 🙂
Some landscapes are breathtaking, and make me think of heaven – I don’t know what that looks like, but I wouldn’t be surprised if some of these earthly places are echoes. I didn’t, primarily, enjoy this clip for the lyrics, although they’re good. It’s the mountains, and the majesty (I had it on full screen, and there’s a bit at 4:18 where I just said, “Wow!”). There doesn’t seem to be an English word for that indefinable longing for a place that you’ve never been to – that sad sweet feeling of nostalgia, or possibly anticipation. Other languages have words – fernweh in German, hiraeth in Welsh – that approximate the yearning. In Ecclesiastes it says that “He has set eternity in our hearts“.
Different people will probably have different sparks that set off that light of eternity. For me, one spark is majestic mountains combined with cold, rainy weather 🙂

“Lord, You’re with me either way it goes.”

…and that’s the truth!

Published in: on March 17, 2021 at 3:42 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Colour, Intensifying

I love bright colours. I wear them, and often surround myself with them.
Last week I finally got around to redecorating my armchair – I’ve had a brown woolly blanket on it for a while, but treated myself to a purple cotton throw a few days back. I bought it, brought it home, gave it a wash… and then put it to one side and forgot about it.

Here it is in full colour, with bright(ish) selfie 🙂

That unicorn cat type thing in the corner is lovely and squishy. It also came with a name, which I can’t quite remember…

A few days after this, my lovely friend came over with a bright watercolour hummingbird cushion for me ❤ so now it’s even more purply/pinky in my corner of the lounge room!

This weekend I’ve been attending the Colour Conference online. I haven’t been in quite a few years, for various reasons, but this year it cost less (no venue hire needed?) and I could log in from home.
Loved it! 😀
I’d forgotten how inspiring it is – worship, teaching (my hand aches, after scribbling notes all weekend at the speed of light!), and being reminded, again, of who I really am.
I have access to replays and bonus material until the end of May, so may see if anyone else wants to watch with me 🙂
I’ve already signed up for next year!

Here’s a couple of songs to enjoy ❤

Published in: on March 13, 2021 at 9:08 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Remembering Where The River Runs

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A Gishy Weird Weekend

Another GISH minihunt – this one was the Wizards and Weirdos minihunt. It started on Sunday morning, 2am, here – I meant to have a sleep, then get up to have a look at the list and choose some items before going back to sleep again until morning. I ended up staying up…
Seemed like there were lots of knights/dragons/unicorns/fairies type items this time around, but maybe that was just the ones I picked.The hunt was hosted this time by Felicia Day. I haven’t quite finished watching the replays of the Zoom calls, but I’ve enjoyed what I’ve seen so far 🙂
When the hunt is on over a Sunday I still go to church in the morning, so that’s the first part of the day out… this one seemed shorter than others I’ve done – it finished 2pm today (Monday), so I probably had about 16 hours to finish my items, once you take out sleeping, eating and whatever else I had to do! I tend to speed up a bit towards the end, so I get more done, but it might not be so great.

Here are my offerings this time around –

10 – The Sword in the Scone. That’s not a typo.


53 – The world around us is filled with small moments of magic, if you remember to look for them. Be still somewhere and contemplate the world until you notice something magical — a particular blade of grass, the way ants seem to greet each other as they work, a shiny coin on a dirty city street…. You get the idea. Write a poem about what you observe and your relation to it that is titled “magic” but has no direct reference to magic — just references to what you experienced.

62 – The fae love art, and empowering people to be artistic is a kindness: Create a tiny free art studio in a public place that is just the right size for fairies to visit. Make sure there is a human-sized hand-sanitizing station! Leave art supplies and tiny notepad or postcard-sized works of art. Add a sign encouraging others to contribute tiny works of art, too. (If you are quarantined or homebound, you may create this in a corner of your own home instead!)

66 – THE KIDS MENU
For Kids & Kids-At-Heart
(I did this one for an earlier hunt but there was no way to submit it, so I decided to put it in here. No points for it, but I was happy to share it 🙂

22 – Email isn’t as secure as it should be, so I used a charm to hide a poem in your books. To retrieve it: Pick up the first 9 books that catch your attention and record the 9th word on the 9th page in each book along with the first and last words of each book. Use the 27 words to write the poem. (You may employ many additional “and”s “if”s “but”s, “a”s “or”s or “the”s as you like.)

84 – Need a clue? Your guild leader, Felicia Day, would tell you to consult her character, CodeX.

Solution – “In Felicia Day’s “The Guild”, the gang’s favorite restaurant was Cheesybeards, obviously named after you, its founder, and your magnificent cheesy beard and mustache. You must eat your beard after you take your picture.

I didn’t end up eating all of it – some fell on the floor. It’s surprisingly hard to keep cheese stuck to your skin…

31 – We know it sounds fantastical, but the GISH Seer provided you with this glimpse into the Year 2021 AD: Something called NASA made a “Perseverance Rover,” which arrived on a planet called “Mars” and sent back its first image. But YOUR team intercepted the REAL first image. Show us what NASA didn’t want us to see, in a photo Mars deniers will always claim was faked. (Photoshop allowed.)

😀

88 – I’m finishing writing my book of poetry & my publisher, Andrews McMeel, gave me a deadline of tomorrow for the title. I’m stuck, so I’m outsourcing it to you: Name my poetry book. Submit your suggestion in font (handwritten or digital) that’s emblematic of the tone or spirit that you think my book will convey.

The end of the hunt was looming by the time I got to this one – I got it finished and submitted five minutes before it all shut down.

55 – Unicorns have a hard time in this economy, so like a lot of us they’ve picked up a side hustle in the fantasy realm. Create a commercial advertisement for the latest unicorn ride-sharing app: U-ber.

Time to think about a good sleep now…

Published in: on March 8, 2021 at 8:59 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Making The Choice

…sit out, or dance?

So tired today…
Went to my first exercise physiology appointment the other day. The exercises I was given are not too hard, and I would have been fine if that was all of the exercise in my day…
My Babe is at uni for quite a lot of hours during the week, so that means he’s often not around to drive me places. On Wednesday that meant that I had to walk home from the appointment. It’s pretty much downhill, and not a huge distance, but I haven’t been able to walk much lately. It was painful and exhausting. Ideally the next day would have been a rest day, but I decided to get some stuff done in town with the expectation of taking the bus home afterwards.

My travel card has expired.
I don’t have an updated concession card yet (not sure why), so I couldn’t renew my travel card.
I only found this when I was in town with no other way home.

I wasn’t sure what to do (I don’t have a phone, and there wasn’t really anyone I could think of who was available to give me a lift anyway!) so I decided to do what I’d come in for, with the option of buying a full price paper ticket on the bus, as advised by the train station attendant.

So – I wandered around town, getting inspired by random beauty as I went 🙂
Ate at a 50s type diner – the food was not great, so I won’t be going back, but the decor was fun.
Here are some of my dining companions –

🙂
I had a look through the charity shops, where I found some nice things

A dream squirrel!
That’s in the front garden now, where it joins two turtles and a fairy garden.

A candle holder thingy!
Dragonflies are a kind of a motif for me at the moment…

Beautiful things cheer me up, and I looked forward to getting them home.
Got to the bus stop.
You can no longer buy tickets on the bus…

Thankfully the bus driver very kindly allowed me to get a ride home – I didn’t have the energy to walk home, or even back to the train station to get a ticket. Glad there are still nice people about! 😀

So – back to today.
It’s tempting to go back to bed when everything’s a bit overwhelming, and sometimes that’s the best option. There were things to do today, though, and places to be.
Every day the choices are to sit back – or dance.

When it’s necessary to rest and reset or heal, then that’s the best option to take.
But if it’s a choice between stepping out, or drawing back in fear –

I hope you choose to dance!

Published in: on March 5, 2021 at 6:49 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Steps, Finally Taken

This year I’ve signed up for an online prophetic creative academy, which consists of various online classes and Facebook group communication, as well as a Zoom call and teaching each month. This month our homework was to practise each of four contemplative disciplines – Sabbath keeping, speaking in tongues, Ignatian meditation and Lectio Divina.
I’ve tried Ignatian meditation, and I can see where it could be helpful… I just have difficulty really “getting” it. I could possibly try listening to someone reading the passage I’m using, rather than reading and trying to remember while I meditate on it – I’ll look into that!
This morning I had a go at Lectio Divina. First impressions are that I can see myself getting more out of it, although I find reading out loud to myself a bit strange! This morning the verse that stood out to me was from Psalm 6, the first part of verse 2 –
Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint
Not the verse I thought I’d focus on!
“Faint”, meaning “lacking strength”, but also perhaps lacking in colour and boldness, or being too quiet, not heard…
“Mercy” – unexpected, unmerited, pouring out…

I am also part of a group doing a study at our church. This week involves starting a new daily habit, which we choose according to our situation. It took me until today to figure out what mine would be. I’m a perfectionist. I’m also a procrastinator. The fact that it took me most of the week to come up with a habit would seem to indicate that! 🙂
So – my habit will be to push past the procrastination block on something each day, even if it’s small.

To that end, I’m trying out a few different things… one of those is to have a pile of stuff that I can use to do some of the things I’ve been putting off. The idea is to have no excuse, because the book/pen/paper etc is right there, rather than somewhere else that would require a special trip to obtain.

I’ll see how that works out…

As part of my “things I’ve been meaning to do but haven’t got around to so why not have a look” today I got a book down from the bookcase that’s been lurking away for years. It’s a daily inspiration type book, and I’m not sure how I’ve gone quite this long without reading it.
What I normally do with this type of book is to flip to my birthday to read what it says, and get a sense of what the book’s like. Most of the entries take up the whole page in some way, so I was expecting my birthday entry to be the same.
It just said “Permission to complete (write yourself a permission slip)” with a couple of little notes in the corner (“learn your tools of completion” and “develop habits of completion”), and a recommendation for a book called… “Procrastination

I think someone’s trying to tell me something…

Published in: on February 26, 2021 at 10:18 pm  Leave a Comment  

Sweet Sunshine

🙂

Published in: on February 19, 2021 at 10:47 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Love!

It’s Valentine’s Day, and a Sunday as well, so we could spend time at church singing of God’s love…
I was given a beautiful bouquet of roses by the lovely lady who makes bouquets to hand out Sunday mornings. Mine was a belated birthday gift 🙂
Here it is, settled in at home…

A close up, just because…

I am fortunate to have a loving marriage and family, so Valentine’s Day is a favourite day for me. We haven’t gone overboard with the celebrating, but we did pick up some nice cake to share.

GF rosewater and pistachio – yum! Tasty and romantic! 🙂

Sometimes it may not look like it, but there’s so much love to be had in this world…
Some families are difficult, some situations (health, finances) are wearying. Days like today can make it seem like everyone else is enjoying life while you’re stuck outside in the cold. It’s OK to separate yourself from people that hurt and belittle you, and it’s OK to ask for help when the world is overwhelming. Find the ones who love you because you’re you! Our door is always open if you need to get away for a bit.

As for me – I’ve just been enjoying Songs of Praise, and this is one of the songs they played.
Here is the Love that brings all love into my life… available to anyone who asks!

Published in: on February 14, 2021 at 3:56 pm  Leave a Comment  
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