Sweetness In The Air

Went out for breakfast the other day, the first day when we were both free from appointments. There were other things to do, but the place we go to opens early, so there’s time to indulge in a big breakfast before the day starts properly…
There’s a series of planting boxes outside that you have to pass to get to the doors. At the moment there’s an abundance of a plant with glossy dark green leaves and small white flowers. I’ve never been quite sure what it is, but a brief google indicates that it’s mock orange (Murraya paniculata) It smells beautiful, and the scent seems to float around you as you walk past. We had some near the gate at the old house, so it tends to make me a bit nostalgic…

We’re hopefully heading into an easier time overall, but some things are still hard. Sometimes seemingly insurmountable. A tiny scented flower won’t change that. It does seem to lighten the air, though – point to the things that are still growing and working the way they should be.

There’s a sweetness in the air.
Close your eyes.
Breathe it in.

Published in: on December 12, 2020 at 3:32 pm  Leave a Comment  

Drained

…and refilled.

I went to my first carol service of the season on Saturday night.

It started just before the sun set, and was a surprisingly cool evening.
There were carols, testimonies…kookaburras laughing raucously in the trees. Ice cream halfway through. Got the chance to chat to some people I haven’t seen in months.

It’s been so hot lately, hasn’t it?
I have my good days and bad days – according to the last doctor, that’s because of fibromyalgia. I know that’s a real thing, but the way it was presented to me, it felt like “don’t know what’s wrong with you go away”…
At this time of the year a bad day is not helped at all by the heat of the day, which makes it feel like your body is slowly boiling from the inside. Drains energy and motivation, and there’s not much respite at night! I’ve spent a few afternoons lately under the fan, draped in wet cloths, hoping to cool down. Yes, we do have air conditioning, and have been using it when absolutely necessary, but not all the time.
When the weather is not co-operating, it’s good to have other ways of being refreshed. This time of year, a good carol service is one way for me! 🙂

I’ve been watering the garden as much as I can, and it’s holding up well The sunflowers are blooming all over the place! The biggest bush looks a bit like I feel, though – sometimes fresh and bright, but other times wilting or shriveled 😆

There’s apparently a cool change coming this week.
Until then, here’s a verse from my reading today –

“The grass withers and the flowers fall,
    but the word of our God endures forever.”
Isaiah 40:8

Published in: on December 6, 2020 at 8:33 pm  Leave a Comment  

Here’s Looking At You, Kid

😆

It’s been one of those days where the success of each activity depends on everything being on schedule – if one thing’s a bit late, everything else just goes out the window…
We got everywhere on time 🙂
The last thing today was a catch up with our area teacher. Classes finished last week, and we’ve been enjoying holidays this week. This meeting, and Awards night later in the week, are our last school things to do. We talked through what’s needed for next year, and what’s been good this year. Sweet Bean has done very well (99/100 for his final physics exam!). Next year may not be so hectic, or it may just be hectic in a different way… it’ll be interesting, either way!
It struck me today that next year will be my last year with a school child in the house. It doesn’t seem quite so long since we were learning ABCs and counting/simple maths with rocks or Legos. Soon Sweet Bean will be in the next phase of his life, as I will be in mine.
Who knows what’s ahead?
Onwards and upwards!
😀

Published in: on December 1, 2020 at 10:31 pm  Leave a Comment  

Pausing The Adventure

Last day of this school year for Sweet Bean.
He’s happy! It’s been a hard year for him in a lot of ways. Time to stop for a bit and breathe more freely…
This is (I think) our 13th year of home schooling. There’s one more to go, and then the grand adventure will move further out still, at least for Sweet Bean. Both boys are pretty much adults now, and I’m so proud of them both!

Time to pause, and rest.
Soon it will be time to run forward again…

Published in: on November 26, 2020 at 6:07 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Sunflowers!

Well, one anyway…
and there’s another one on the way.

A lot smaller than I thought they’d be, but I don’t mind – I’ve been waiting a long time for these to flower!

Published in: on November 23, 2020 at 9:44 pm  Leave a Comment  

Sky Confetti

The other day we were driving somewhere, and suddenly there were hundreds of butterflies drifting across the sky, like confetti… not all at once, but they just kept on coming.

Of course, once I stopped to film it, there weren’t so many. You can still see some fluttering past. Otherwise, enjoy the music – it’s one of the free background clips YouTube provide for use in your uploads. It’s called “Wandering Soul”, which seemed appropriate!

It’s spring, although today feels a bit more like summer. Everything’s greening up, and I’ve been adding to the succulents in my pots and gardens. Things are springing from the soil that I’d forgotten about, or didn’t even know were there.
The earth always renews, whatever the preceding blessing or disaster…
I tend to forget that.
When things go wrong, I sometimes forget that there’s capacity for renewal. I see the barrenness, and feel like that’s all there is or will be…
When my plants die (because I’m not a natural gardener!) I think there’s no point trying again. When I feel ill, and everything drags on, I feel like I’ll never be well again.
There is room for renewal – even if not for perfection.

“Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.
They are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.”
Lamentations 3:22-23

Even when lamenting there is room for hope!

I have great hope that my new plants will survive. I’ve kept some of them alive for a while now, and they seem quite hardy. Here’s my new garden…

…and my new pots are now filled.

😀

Published in: on November 14, 2020 at 4:15 pm  Leave a Comment  

A Poppy For Remembrance

LEST WE FORGET

Published in: on November 11, 2020 at 5:00 am  Leave a Comment  
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As Time Goes By

I’ve said it before, but it still holds true… I’m at that age when actors from my childhood and youth are getting older and dying. It’s not unexpected, but still brings a bout of nostalgia, a touch of sadness, and a faint shadow of mortality.
Yesterday Geoffrey Palmer died.
We mostly know him from “As Time Goes By“, with Judi Dench. It’s about an older couple who lost touch when they were younger, and unexpectedly reconnect in later years. Quiet, understated, slow moving, no car chases and gun fights…and hugely funny! We’ve watched it many times, and still laugh every time. The whole family has been watching it with dinner tonight as a tribute 🙂
Geoffrey’s character, Lionel, is grumpy, reticent, and sweet. The love story that unfolds over the years is gentle and romantic, and I enjoy (and understand) it more as I get older ❤
I’ll attach a clip from the show, but you have to watch it all in context to get the full effect.


We’ll watch some more episodes, and raise a custard tart in salute.
Thank you, Mr Palmer, for making us laugh for all these years!

Published in: on November 7, 2020 at 7:07 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Thinking In Black And White

I’ve been reading again…
Our library is closing down soon, in order to open at a new location in early December. I’m stocking up on books to tide me over, and putting some on reserve for when they come in. Usually I read cozy mysteries, but I’m trying to intersperse those with books that are a bit weightier, along a range of topics. These ones were on reserve for a long time (lots of people before me in line!).
Cozies are undemanding, but I need to be learning as well.
Here’s the first book, reserved when the Black Lives Matters protests were starting up in earnest.

It’s a book about how living in a racist society affects what we think and do, even when we don’t realise it, and about the defensive reactions white people can display when unintentionally racist actions or words are pointed out to them. This is written by a white person (who provides racial sensitivity training for organisations in the U.S.) for white people, and as such has had criticisms of presumption and problematic assumptions. It is U.S.-centric, and probably simplifies or glosses over important points…nevertheless, I wanted to read it…because here’s the thing.

I am racist.

No, I’m not about to don a white hood and burn crosses. I don’t use racial slurs or discriminate on the basis of race, that I know of. But that’s the issue – what don’t I know of? I’m not going to get into breast-beating or false guilt here. Just acknowledging that I grew up in a time when there were a lot of unquestioned racial stereotypes, education about indigenous history was practically non-existent (and one-sided), and prejudice was minimised or ignored. There’s no way I could have not been affected. It’s up to me to be aware of what I’m really thinking and saying, and be able to take criticism on board when I come across it. As a beginning I generally find that if something has made me immediately defensive, it’s probably a signal to search deeper to find where that’s coming from…

The other book? That’s got a lot to do with the lack of indigenous history in my school years.

European settlement of Australia was justified by using the argument of “terra nullius“, or saying that the land belonged to no-one, so they were justified in taking it. This point of view has been challenged over the years with varying levels of success, but I would think that the general view of Aboriginal Australia tends to still be along the lines of hunter-gatherers who didn’t settle in one particular place. This book tries to redress the balance, and show that Aboriginal Australia was a place of settlements and various forms of agriculture. There are contemporary settlers’ accounts of settlements of hundreds to over a thousand people in permanent dwellings, with water management systems and storage areas. There are accounts of riding through miles of crop fields. Fish were farmed in rivers, and in some places killer whales worked in tandem with the fishermen to herd fish towards the shore. Some of the areas that are now desert were fertile areas.
All of these things, and more, are noted in colonial diaries and letters, but ingrained prejudice seems to have made them blind to what they were seeing – when confronted with an impressive structure, it seems to have been more likely to have been attributed to some random European passing by sometime in the past than to a flourishing Aboriginal community.
Reading this book was fascinating, but also sad – how much has been lost, and how much can we still save? It seems to me to be worthwhile trying to understand Aboriginal land management and engineering so we can preserve what’s left and even renew what’s almost lost…
Is it ever too late to change?

Reading…
Lots of fun!
…but can also be dangerous to ignorance.
🙂

A song to finish with.
Because it’s never really too late…

Published in: on November 5, 2020 at 4:51 pm  Leave a Comment  
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Growing Out Of Sight…

My lovely garden is doing fine right now – the rains we’ve had have been just right to keep it alive and flourishing. Even the plants I thought would die (they didn’t seem to have a proper root system) are standing up happily.
The frangipanis by the pool are finally flowering…

…and my zinnias have suddenly burst out with a profusion of flowers.

I kept a close eye on them for a while and nothing much happened, but when I took my eye off them, everything seemed to open at once!

It feels like the same is going on with my boys – sudden leaps in maturity, just as I’m looking in the other direction for a second. 😀
Sweet Bean has been doing external exams this week – only three days, as he’s doing two Year 12 subjects. He went to the huge school up the road from us, where he had to navigate classrooms and large numbers of strangers on his own. It’s the first time he’s had anything to do with mainstream school, and it was hardly a stress-free situation… I am so proud of the way he’s managed so well ❤ He’s very glad to have finished those ones. Next week he’ll be doing his Year 11 exams – still important, but lower pressure.
Biggest Boy is studying at uni at the moment. It’s been a while since he’s done formal schooling, as well! He’s been very conscientious about homework and assignments, and has learned to deal with the issues that crop up with group projects – working with different personalities and levels of commitment. I’ve watched him mature and grow in ability just in these last few months ❤

They’re both so gorgeous! 😀
I love to see my garden flower and thrive, but I love even more seeing my boys launch out into the adult world, forging their own individual paths…

Published in: on October 30, 2020 at 10:02 pm  Leave a Comment